Friday, August 24, 2001

Went to a awesome show last night. File 13 and headling......................saves the day. It was packed. But it was awesome. Loved it. love being around any muzic.I can't live with out it.Espeaciall being there, pounding on my chest. Beautiful. Realease of inner depths........
I've had such a busy weekend. Haven't had time to write in my journal. Not like anyone read's them anyway's.Staying with my mom is so diffrent. It's been 20 years with out her. Then one day it's like,bam, we're living together. I'm still planning to invest in a apartment. Such a hard struggle.But I can do it. I am to strong. No one can bring me down.(Except you God)

Tuesday, August 21, 2001

This mental stump I've fell into is a feeling in my heart............

Monday, August 20, 2001

Yeah! Just made it home from my date with (d). We have so much crazy fun together. We went to a great chinese resterant. She tried to eat at least. See..... To make a long story short. We were having a little to much fun and that night we ended up getting things. To better explain things she pierced her tongue and I invested in a tattoo. Yeah. We had alot of fun. Just acting silly making fun of people to make us feel better.Hah. We are so bad.
Good morning to myself. I had the longest weekend.Out of my house.Scary. I've never slept out of my own home before. Well? I am kiddin. I have. But not for ever.Luckly I have one thing to keep me going. ::Music:: I couldn't survive with out it. I probably could but it would super suck.Inspiring words that take me to my next step. I love it.After all I can't seem to trust the people around me.Music will never betray me. It just play's over and over.Never pressuring you to do anything.Only reminding you of your choices,along with the consequences.Beautiful experiances and inner thought's free from your soul. Like a release, of some sort.Especially music like the deftones that are so expresional. For some one to actually make you feel what they felt as they journey life is awesome.To cry with them and rage with them (to me) is a bond beyond any...